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It always comes back to the mountains

Software, health, sport, food, life — it looks like five different interests. Look closer and they all point at the same place.

If you list out the things I spend time on, it reads like a person who can’t focus. Software. Nutrition. Running. Food. Whatever fits under “life.” Five directions at once. But I’ve come to see it differently. They’re not five interests. They’re five roads to the same place, and the place is a mountain.

The clearest version is the obvious one. I go to mountains. Toubkal in Morocco, Nepal, Norway, the Azores, the Dolomites. Different ranges, different years, but the same pull every time — go up, stay up there a while, come back changed a little. That’s the thing I keep arranging my life around, even when I pretend I’m arranging it around other things.

The daily version is smaller and less photogenic. Most weeks I’m not in the Himalayas, I’m running the hills around Santa Coloma, Badalona, the edges of Barcelona. Often with friends, which matters more than the distance does. It’s the same activity scaled down to fit a Tuesday evening — the same reason underneath, just closer to home and with someone to talk to on the climb.

And then the parts that don’t look like mountains at all. The training I do is so I can keep going up for longer without falling apart. The way I think about food is so the body that has to carry me up there actually works. Even the software points back: Peak Health and Eat or Skip exist because I want the people I care about to have healthy bodies too, not just me. It’s all maintenance on the same machine, pointed at the same horizon.

I used to feel a bit scattered about it. Like I should pick a lane — be the software guy, or the running guy, or the health guy. Commit to one and go deep. But the honest truth is that the breadth isn’t a lack of focus. It’s the focus. Everything I do is, in some indirect way, about being able to move through mountains for a long time, with people I like, in a body that holds up.

So when this site jumps from a software post to a food note to something about a race, that isn’t me being unable to decide. It’s the most consistent thing about me, just seen from different sides. It always comes back to the mountains.